Less then..........10 and a half hours....

I have to report to St.Marys at 7:30 am

Wow, my big day is tomorrow

my new life...The new me...its just around the corner...

wow i can't believe this day is almost here... I'm very excited...but scared...

Will post as soon as i can after surgery

my lovely sis is going to let me use her laptop at the hospital..so if i get up and going i will try to post something........

Thanks everyone for being amazing

1 1/2 days...and counting....

Well....

The time is almost here....I have 1 1/2 days till surgery...and Surgery is January 29th!

Today i went shopping got tons of stuff

• Sugarfree Popsicles


• no sugar no fat pudding


• low fat cottage cheese


• fat free chicken gravy


• fat free beef gravy


• fat free chicken broth


• fat free beef broth


• fruit in own juice

Lots more stuff...

I'm not getting scare about surgery...just scared about life after surgery

also i have this stupid cold, that i wish would go away!!!!!!!! i have been drinking OJ, after OJ, after OJ, taking vitamin C Pills, and zicame so hopefully it goes away over night..lol

On Thursday(tomorrow) i will be getting up and visiting my grandma then come home

and pack my over night(s) bag and then take my wondering magnesium citrate and i guess be using the restroom for the rest of the night.

I have to call between 8:15pm, to midnight to find out my surgery time...

when i find out i will tell everyone, and i'm 100% sure i will start getting nerves!!

5 Day.....so little time........

There are 5 days till i have surgery

This time next Sunday i will be at St.Marys Hospital in Roch

Hopefully up and walking, and very slowly sipping on some broth, or water

I kinda had a breakdown last night... i started crying in bed.. i had some fears...

and the "what if's" and Leo was there to comfort me..he talked to me an and told me everything will be ok.. i'v made it this far with 25 lbs gone and its been hard...but i truly have the most amazing support system ever..and i really want to thank everyone...

Some of my "WHAT IF'S" That i'm going to type out..and hopefully get out of my mind..

1. What if, i fail


2. what if, all this down the long run i can't get pregnant


3. what if i get dehydrated to many times


4. what if i'm saggy and ugly

THE GOOD WHAT IFS

1. What if i can talk up 3 flights of stairs and feel great and not have to stop


2. what if i end up running, and love it


3. what if i'm happy


4. what if i get pregnant have have 3 healthy kids


5. what if i do everything right!!

I still feel like i have a ton of stuff do to this week...

Do Major grocery shopping, not only for myself and mom because she will be staying with me and leo

I need to spend a day or two pureeing food and freezing it

i need to Clean, i hate hate hate cleaning

however, the kitchen is almost done...and the bathroom is done

i need to go to the laundry mat and was all my blankets and pillow cases

I will get everything done.. i know i can....i just can't give up

6 days..................Information overload...and confused?

WOW time has really went by fast.........6 days until surgery...Less then a week

Yesterday i had my all day appts...it truly was a LONG day....

started with blood work, then talked to the dietitian for like an hr and half...then had lunch with mom...then talked to the surgeon..signed papers talked some more...blah blah blah...then 1 more appt...had to do a penicillin test...came back negative...then have my heart and lungs checked..signed more papers..talked with more doctors...

Anywho...Yesterday was totally INFORMATION OVERLOAD....thank god i brought my should bag because i entered the hospital with just my agenda book, and my reading book...and left with it full of info!! CRAZY.................. i have a tons of stuff i need to re read over, and over, till i full 100% understand them...and if i don't, i have to make some calls next week to my dietitian

I will be at St.Marys hospital for 2-4 days, depends on how good i'm doing

I'm excited, very excited...but getting nervous... i just want to do everything right... i don't want to be a failure anymore.. i want to make myself proud....i feel stressed.............

my busy week ahead of me

1) major cleaning

2) hang out with in-laws and niece

3)shopping,and make and freeze purred food

4) have to take some meds that make me use the bathroom all day long...gross i know

5) SURGERY

wow, this week is going to go fast...................................................................i don't know i feel like i have a million things i need to do...H.E.L.P...........lol...........anywho...i'm going to take it easy today...i'm just exhausted....

will write more soon

p.s i want to thank my Wonderfull mom, for tagging along to all my LONG boring appt yesterday...i love her!!

12 days till surgery............. and....HAPPYNESS

Today was a great day...

I babysat my best friends little girl who is 5 1/2 years old...and she is such a doll, and a good little girl (yes she does have her bad days) lol,

well My husband took her snowmobiling today, and just the joy in his eyes and her eyes made me smile. Then we took her sledding and he went down the hills with her and everything. He is going to be a great dad someday i hope i can fill that for him, and Make him a dad... But around dinner time is what hit me the most, and i had tears...I was making a salad and looking into the front room, and he was teaching her how to use the index, and had his arm around her and trying to sound out words with her and and looking for the number to find what they were looking for, it was truly amazing...He is a amazing husband...and i can't wait to see him as a father...he will be amazing

On another note: Today is 12 days till my surgery date, I'm totally excited!!!I got on Birth Control on Friday.. I got the implanon put in my arm...Yes it was sore on Fri, and sat, but mostly Saturday, i went snowmobiling and had to push my car out of the ditch and the dog hit my arm...so it was hurting, but i iced it last night for a few hours and today so far its OK...not fully 100% better, but alot better!Everything else has been going great, the weather has been pretty nice.Oh, got my mom's treadmill at my house and put up, she is letting me borrow hers until we can get one..

15 days..reality has kinda kicked in

Yes..only 15 days till my big day...My RNY surgery...

Relaity has kinda sunk in... i feel like i have a million things i need to do!!

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  I need to get the house spick and span so i don't have to worrie about it too much while im recovering


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  I need to get my protein drinks, but money has been so squicky tight...thats something we just can't afford at this moment


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  Need to get a tons of broth and soup

I have Class Next Tuesday 19th, with some people who have had the surgery, so i can ask questions if i have any

I have my Pre-Op appt Next Friday the 22nd, to get everything finalized, and dot all my T's and I's

This Friday i have a doc appt @12:45 to get on bc, i'm getting the Implanad put in my arm

I have a full weekend ahead of me, Babysit Sat and sun, and that so nice for extra money because we need it and i won't be able to spend much time with the kids until after surgery

I did take the whole week off before surgery just to get myself prepared because this is such a big change i need that time to talk with family and friends and just re assure myself that everything will be OK!!

Well i will write more soon

wondering about V-day.......?!?!?!

Yes i know I'm a month ahead of myself...

But I'm SO clueless..I will only be 2 weeks pos-op around v-day..and My hubby and i usually make abig steak and potatoes and salad and wine dinner...i don't know what to do this year... its something we have done for 5 years now...and this will be the first year we won't be doing it... I'm clueless...I know we can always do the whole go to the movies...but that gets boring.. we do that all the time.. can't really enjoy to much activity outside because its cold.....i dunno...i guess maybe I'm thinking out-loud, hopefully someone has my magical answer..

21 days and counting.............

Well as of today its 21 days till my surgery!!

I'v been working hard on watching what i eat...but boy has it been hard... My lunches have been sugar free Instant Breakfast mix with skim milk..Yumm-o...lol "not really" but it has been helping curve my appetite and not eat so much..and its healthier for you

I can't wait to get my mom's treadmill over here because i believe that will help me...Don't get me wrong i LOVE my wii fit..but sometimes you want to do something different...and i'm a big whimp when it comes to walking outside in the cold...lol...

Other then that not to much new...

I will be getting on Birth Control on the 15th.. I'm going to be getting the implanon...and that is a little matchstick like thingy, they put in your arm and it last 3 years...and can be taken out anytime you want!! So i'm kinda excited about that...No pills, no nuva ring...

Will write more sometime soon, when i have more updates!!
Thanks for taking the time to read!!

Bored out of my mind.......

Its Sunday...No babysitting today...You would thank i would be relaxing, and chilling at home...

but i'm soo flippen bored..........ugh...however i'm proud to say i'm not board eating..lol

what to do what to do..........................

maybe finish up laundry?!

ugh that sounds like no fun

i have bad...TBS "Tired Butt Syndrome" its soo flippen cold outside...uggh

i can't wait till spring/summer time!!!!!!!

Pregnancy........

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately...and i can honestly say i'm a 100% a-ok with not being pregnant in the year 2010!! wow, i can actually say that.and mean it! It might sound funny when your reading this...and be like wow someone who wants kids so bad...is ok with not being pregnant..that sounds funny!!

Well i have a new life to look forward to.. a new me...i'm going to be so busy learning about my new self...that i just need to worry about me... Also... I'm going to Maine for a week and half with Mom, and Leo...that's totally exciting... My best friend is getting married...and i'm her Matron of Honor...so life is going to be busy in 2010...hopefully in 2011 we can try... only if i'm ready... If not... we will wait..... we will have to see when the time comes...