5 Day.....so little time........

There are 5 days till i have surgery

This time next Sunday i will be at St.Marys Hospital in Roch

Hopefully up and walking, and very slowly sipping on some broth, or water

I kinda had a breakdown last night... i started crying in bed.. i had some fears...

and the "what if's" and Leo was there to comfort me..he talked to me an and told me everything will be ok.. i'v made it this far with 25 lbs gone and its been hard...but i truly have the most amazing support system ever..and i really want to thank everyone...

Some of my "WHAT IF'S" That i'm going to type out..and hopefully get out of my mind..

1. What if, i fail


2. what if, all this down the long run i can't get pregnant


3. what if i get dehydrated to many times


4. what if i'm saggy and ugly

THE GOOD WHAT IFS

1. What if i can talk up 3 flights of stairs and feel great and not have to stop


2. what if i end up running, and love it


3. what if i'm happy


4. what if i get pregnant have have 3 healthy kids


5. what if i do everything right!!

I still feel like i have a ton of stuff do to this week...

Do Major grocery shopping, not only for myself and mom because she will be staying with me and leo

I need to spend a day or two pureeing food and freezing it

i need to Clean, i hate hate hate cleaning

however, the kitchen is almost done...and the bathroom is done

i need to go to the laundry mat and was all my blankets and pillow cases

I will get everything done.. i know i can....i just can't give up