MONEY....and Fertilty!!

Wow! What a day yesterday was! Very emotional day! Started out great, Leo took the day off we hung out talked and did some shopping.. Then I went and got blood work to see if i ovulated and then went to our fertility appt. Well the nurse comes in starts talking, were going threw our handouts and bam.. she lays the price on us.. 3000$ for 1 months worth of shots.. i pretty much wanted to cry right there...because i new deep down there was NO way we were going to afford that unless we took out a loan.. So we finished our class...and she told us to go to different pharmacy and price the meds..well we went to 4 different pharmacy and NOT 1 had this medication on hand our could even give us a price.. so we diced to go back to mayo's Pharmacy and just recheck the prices and to make sure insurance wouldn't cover anything.. well got there waited about 20 min to be told.. insurance will cover the medication that's 40$, but won't cover the 100$ shot..or the 3000$ shot. well by then my hopes were gone, lost..i was read and willing to give up..and live with the fact that i may not ever become a mother.. i cryed...then we had to go grocery shopping..after that all the way home.. i cryed... and cryed..and cryed!! Then we came home..and i decided to go the website that our nurse told me about... its called.. www.freedomdrug.com its 100% all fertility medication thats all they cover! So i did my research line looked at other places..and so far i believe... we might seem light at the tunnel.. freedomedrug has a program called compassionate care and its income based and they will give you 1 months worth of fertility medication for free.. so now, were waiting for paper work so i can fill it out and fax it back.. we do meet everything is just the matter of how fast they will process our paperwork. So keep our fingers crossed that this will work... Also if we for some odd reason don't qualify for that they also have something called Fertility assistt 2..that will help us also.. we have to pay 1 months worth of medication out of our own pocket and the next month if we don't get pregnant we can get 250$-500$ off our medication.... But the other good news.. there medication is so much cheaper.. ok the 3000$ medication is on -795$ threw this website! So a few weeks of saving out of the paycheck and should be able to afford it if we can't get the 1 months worth of free.........SO........Lets keep our fingers crossed.. I'm sick of let me downs and I'm sick of money being everything.... i just want us to get a break in life...because i know we deserve it!!

Random..............

I have a ton on my mind.. so i though i would type it!
This week/weekend...has been a emotional one.. nothing bad.. just my emotions are wacky..also being sick doesn't help it..
Leo and i got to spend alot of time together this week.. i really enjoyed it alto. We even had a chance to make dinner together..and boy it was one yummy homemade pizza, got to actually take the dogs for walks and just enjoy each others company.. trust me this was much needed.. Sat. we did a whole lot of nothing... was lazy, lazy, lazy... i was sick.. so i slept almost all day and he watched tv almost all day..... Sunday... went to the M.O.A to trade in my 90$ free Shoes thanks to DR.OZ and then i got sick at the mall, ya...not any fun.. we did a little more shopping then came home... We then watch tv and went to bed.... Got a phone call at 2:am Monday morning it was my stepbro Jacob calling to tell my my grandmother house was on fire, and that there was nothing let of it. Its so sad and makes me angry.. because its not like my family has tons of money to up and rebuild or buy a new home...............But.... all this can do i make our family stronger! We can make it threw anything!!..So needless to say... i didn't sleep much!! I wish i could be there to comfort my family.. but i can't...but i am there in thoughts and prayers!!
So......... Today... i have therapy at 10:00.....then doctor at 1:45 for these migraines that have been coming and going for the last 2 weeks.. i just can't take them anymore!!!.. I feel like i have a ton to do in the house..laundry, vacuuming, ect.. but i can't my energy is GONE...and I'm sick.....ugh!!! Maybe tuesday i will get some energy back.. .lord i hope so.......
Wed is another fertility appt, i get bloodwork done to see if i'm pregnant.. witch i'm100% sure i'm not..and then we have a class that teaches us about Gondatropin... So... i will be starting the road of Provera..(period pill) Then the road of shots for 7-12 days.. then many mayo appts inbetween!! it would be so awesome to get pregnant in one try.........but i won't keep my hopes to high!!
I'm going to go lay down for awhile.............................

Fertility Updates

Well!!!.. Had 2 fertility appt yesterday....
appt 1
vaginal ultrasound..yes TMI i know...they checked to make sure my body shed its old uterus lining.. when i had my period.. also to check my ovaries for no cyst..Both came back great.. My body did what it should and needed to do.. Good news there were NO cyst.. So that appt last maybe 20min at the most...
then a few hours later went and actually seen Dr.Stewart(my fertility doctor)
talked about all the options, Clomid, Gonadotropin, iui, ifv
Well i went in thinking we were going to just do provera(help induce a period) and clomid(help ovulate) so... when she said we were going to skip that step and do provera and Gondatropin, i was shocked.. in a good way don't get me wrong.. but wow.. a big step for us....
What is Gondatropin, your probably wondering........
Gondatropin treatment involves a series of injections and careful monitoring during each treatment cycle.

**HERE IS A LITTLE INFO YOU MAY OR MAYNOT UNDERSTAND**

Treatment: What to expect

Human menopausal gonadotropins (hMG) consist of follicle stimulating hormone (FSH) and luteinizing hormone (LH), while urofollitropin or recombinant FSH are made purely of FSH. Whichever you choose to be injected with for seven to 12 days will translate into a dose of FSH that'll prompt your ovaries to produce several eggs, whereas you normally produce only one a month.

After you receive those shots, you'll be injected with another substance called human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG), which will tell your ovaries to release your mature eggs into your fallopian tubes. If an egg meets up with a healthy sperm on its way to your uterus, you'll have a chance to conceive.

So...This is what we will be doing for 3-5 months... unless of course we get pregnant.. then we don't have to do it anymore...

I will be taking Provera and on day 2-3 of my period i will be starting my shots for 7-12 days..

the down fall about gonadotropin is there is a higher risk of multiple births.......but oh well what can you do...........

Also, Insurance doesn't pay for the medication so we will be paying for it out of our pocket so that sucks.. but....oh well.........

I go back to the doctor next wed, to the"teaching" class on gonadotropin and learn about it and how to give myself the shots... so exciting.. and scared!!!

But lets hope and pray it works... wouldn't it be nice if it worked after 1 round?!?!?!
keep your fingers crossed